1957. At 18, Raju joins NS not for glory but to
escape his father’s ghost in a kampongturnedHDB
flat in Geylang. The flat still smells of
turmeric and old sorrow. His mother, gone three
years, left behind a tin of her signature kueh
lapis — the kind only she made with betel leaf
ink and coconut milk blessed by a Malay makcik.
The tin sits untouched on the top shelf, wrapped
in newspaper that smells like rain and silence.
The rule: no one touches the tin. Not even his
sister. Not even during Hari Raya. The army gave
him three weeks’ leave before posting to Pulau
Tekong. His platoon mocked him for crying when
the bus passed the old opium den near Jalan
Besar. He didn’t cry for the war. He cried
because his father whispered, “You’ll never be
enough,” the night before he vanished into the
Chinese Secret Society purge.
On the last night before departure, Raju climbs
the five flights alone. The lights flicker. The
neighbour’s radio plays a Malay ballad about
lost lovers. He opens the tin. Inside, the kueh
lapis is whole. Unspoiled. Still warm. He takes
one slice. Not to eat. To prove he’s not afraid.
The moment his fingers touch it, the floorboards
groan like the old kampong house. The walls weep
damp stains shaped like faces — his mother’s,
his father’s, the makcik who blessed it. The tin
rattles. A voice, not spoken but felt, hums
through his bones: You took what wasn’t yours to
carry.
He runs. Down the stairs. Past the 1963 HDB
notice pinned to the lift door: “All residents
must surrender heirlooms for national unity
drive.” The rule bites now — the state had just
declared ancestral objects “divisive relics.”
He’s not stealing food. He’s stealing identity.
And the law says it’s treason.
At the bus stop, dawn bleeds pink over the new
estate. He eats the slice. The taste floods him —
not sweet, not bitter, but remembered. His
mother’s hands pressing the layers. His father’s
silence after the police took his uncle. The
makcik’s prayer in Jawi. The kueh doesn’t
dissolve. It settles. Like a stone in his chest.
He boards the bus. No one speaks. He stares out
at the concrete blocks rising where fruit trees
once grew.
The tin is gone. But the kueh remains — inside
him. And the HDB block behind him? It no longer
creaks with ghosts.
It sings.


