The morning of his draft call, Raju was hauling
durians from Taman Jurong to Chinatown when the
lorry shuddered midJunction 10. No crash. No
sirens. Just silence—then the smell of burnt
jackfruit and something older, like wet incense
in a kampung shrine. He woke in Tengah Barracks
with a shaved head, a new uniform, and no memory
of the last twentyone days.
His NS file said he was assigned to 3 SIR as a
grab driver. But the army never used grab
drivers in infantry units. Only the old
transport corps did—before the 1959 motorisation
edict that banned civilian vehicles from
military zones. The rule bit hard: any soldier
caught operating a nonstandard vehicle without
thumbprint clearance was discharged with
dishonour, no appeal. Raju’s logbook showed him
driving a 1947 Bedford truck—outlawed since the
Japanese Occupation—on three nights between
April 12 and 18, 1963.
The radio in the cab hissed at 3am every night.
Not English. Not Mandarin. Malay, thick with
Klang Valley inflection, whispering: “Jangan
pergi ke jambatan.” Don’t go to the bridge. He
didn’t remember crossing it. But his boots were
always wet with river mud, and the backseat held
a bundle of British colonial conscription forms—
signed in ink that smelled like turmeric and
kerosene.
On the fourth night, he followed the voice. The
bridge was still standing—Sungei Kadut, where
the British hanged nationalist agitators in ’48.
The truck was there, parked where no vehicle had
been seen since ’54. The radio crackled. A voice
he didn’t know spoke his name, then said: “You
were never supposed to survive the purge.” He
reached for the ignition. The key turned. The
engine roared. The dashboard lit up with names—
thirtyseven of them—all conscripts who vanished
between ’45 and ’61. His name glowed last.
He woke in the infirmary. No truck. No radio.
His NS papers were gone. The colonel handed him
a single sheet: “Discharged under Article 7,
Emergency Powers Act 1948. Reason: Memory loss
linked to subversive activity.” Outside, the HDB
flats were still being built. The kampong where
his mother lived had been razed last year. He
walked home. No one asked where he’d been.
At the doorstep, his mother pressed a packet of
kaya toast into his hand. “You smell like the
old bridge,” she said. She didn’t ask about the
uniform. She never did. He never told her he’d
driven a ghost’s truck. Or that the last name on
the dashboard was his father’s—missing since ’42,
declared dead by the British, but never buried.
That night, the radio hummed again. Quiet.
Patient. Waiting. He didn’t turn it on. But he
kept the key. In his pocket. Cold. Alive. The
rule still stood: no soldier drives without
thumbprint. His left thumb had no print. Just a
scar shaped like a kris.


