1957. In a Tiong Bahru HDB flat still
halfkampong, 16yearold Raju cuts his hair short
before dawn, his mother’s kueh lapis cooling on
the table — he’ll never eat it. His father, a
MalayMuslim conscript who vanished in Malaya ’45,
left no photo, only a rusted identity card
stamped with a Japanese officer’s seal. The
state now demands every boy born before ’41
register for National Service — but Raju’s birth
certificate lists him as “Sato Kenji,” a name he
never knew.
The switch happened when he touched the card in
the attic. That night, his reflection blinked
first.
By week three of Basic Training at Pasir Ris,
Raju walks like the dead man, speaks in clipped
Japanese phrases he never learned, flinches at
the smell of wet rice straw. His drill sergeant
calls him “Sato” — no one asks why. The rule
bites: any recruit who questions his assigned
identity is shipped to the Andaman penal colony,
erased from records. Raju swallows his mother’s
Singlish curses, learns to salute with his
father’s stiff wrist.
At night, he dreams of the 1942 evacuation — not
his memory, but the ghost’s. A child’s hand
slipping from a woman’s grip in Kampong Glam. A
bamboo flute buried under a rubber tree. He
wakes with salt on his lips, not sweat.
On the eve of his first leave, he sneaks into
the old Japanese cemetery at Bukit Timah. There,
beneath a mosscracked stone marked “Sato Kenji,
1923–1945,” he finds his own name carved beside
it — in Malay script, freshly dug.
The next morning, he reports sick. They send him
home. His mother doesn’t ask why he’s crying.
She gives him his father’s old sarong, the one
with the frayed hem.
He burns the identity card.
But when he looks in the mirror, his face is
still the soldier’s.
The state never corrected the record.
The ghost never left.
He wears it now — not as disguise, but as
inheritance.
At the hawker centre, old men call him “Kiam,”
the Hokkien name for the dead. He buys kaya
toast. Pays with coins he doesn’t remember
earning.
He will never join the army.
He will never be Raju again.
And that’s how the nation forgot its ghosts — by
making them wear its uniform, then calling them
loyal.


